hey pple... thanks~

something very bad, almost the worst thing, happened in my life.
i dun wanna talk bout it... but pple are asking me y i'm not updating my blog...
i need time to recover. my heart really bleeds. no one will understand how i feel. it's sucking up my life but i still put on a mask everyday, smiling. so just don't ask me. the thessalonians isn't helping me at all...

went to sch today n saw somebody which i dun realli wanna see... just ignore and fake it all through.

forget bout the unhappiness, eden came to sch shortly after i'm dismissed and we walked to the kent ridge terminal together to take bus 33
it's the first time i'm going there. we're taking a straight bus from the terminal to queenstown.

went to his father's fren stall which sells exotic juices and some claypot food. have the mushroom chi and veg. he's supposedly to force me to try the avocado dronk, but after tasting it, it tastes like cookies n cream, which is weird and yucky... so i stick to my soursop strawberry.
after the food, , went to ikea to have our 'die die muz eat' stuff. same combo again, meatball, cheesecake and coffee.
before the food, ,we walked around the place, testing and trying out sofa. hahaha. happily we hp from one to another and took some pics along the way.


ok, after the food and loitering in anchorpoint, we head to jp. lots of pple on the train...

reached there, received some bad news which worsen my existing uncomfortable-ness, feeling bit heavy in my head and slightly nauseous and floaty...

had potato salad in billy bombers while others had their super gigantic plate zize food, woa, but i duun feel the temptation leh...

discussed bit bout the trip... some advancement... realli wish to hop on that transportation mode and get going.

ending: bought some stuff for da xiao ham, went to kfc, back home, watch yu le % and blog

oh missed out a super big chunk... called eden after i got home and ask him whether things will happen similarly. i feel so vulnerable so scared so dependent on a single factor, or simply a single choice..
wat if? nobody realli noes 'what if'... what if it happens? not up to anyone's control, no choice and ended up devastated? who will i become? quite a diff person, i guess.
wat if? u promised, but what if? what can u guarantee? a contract to sign?
spending effort and energy emotionally and spiritually ---> waste, yes it's a waste cuz there's no blossom...
aniway these r just some snippets of e conversation b/w eden n I. so it doesn't apply to anyone or has any degrading comments on anyone...

cheers

hey people ask u hor,

do u, sometimes find a person doig something which u realli dunno why they are doing that?
like
why this person think in this way which is so unreasonable and idiotic?
why this person do certain things which are so demanding and not realistic?
why this person say such things in such a way that makes ur blood boil while to that person it's just a casual remark?

do u have this type of feeling whereby U REALLY DO NOT KNOW WHY THAT PERSON THINK/SAY/DO THINGS THIS WAY?

realli dunno what's in their brain lehz. can psychology teach me tat? i realli wanna noe...

anybody experience such feeling b4? but can't say outta mouth? ku1 bu4 kan1 yan2

oh, i just realized that my xiao ham arrived on children's day. hehe easy date to remember.
anyway, took some fotos of her and yea, so cute~


sad thing to note is that da xiao ham can't get along well... they fought and screamed real hard...
hai~ ani suggestions to help bringing them together?? please leave a msg in the tag board. thanks

yea yea, my papa had bought another hamster!

She is bout 3 mths old and her colour is almost similar to da ham (formerly known as hamham and ah ham), but just a bit lighter.
papa said her colour is called 'mold' cuz it's like the mold colour...
she's so active and scared when it arrived. her nails are so intense thati can feel it pricking into my skin.
at least she doesn't bite. that's good...here're some pic... quite blur cuz i can't get her to settle down...




i've to start all over with the toilet training and house rules.

oh, when i put da xiao ham together to see whether they can get along... when they got real close to each other, they fight and squeak! god, my da ham seldom squeak, and i seperate them immediately...

think they need more time to adapt to this new friend and then get together... hope they can eventualli

so surprise that i'll get a new honey today, my dad just call and ask me whether i want another hammy or not...

aniway, chin chin is coming in bout another mth's time... eeh... then these 3 frens will have to learn to play together and that's another problematic time...

hai~ for now, let's just celebrate the arrival of this baby first larz~

oh ya, since i can't think of a better name for her, she'll be now called xiao ham. and her sis will be da ham...